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What do you do when you feel you are trapped and not going anywhere in life?

i desperatly want to emigrate from britain and build a new life, get friends, a partner, get into employment, and just basically achieve happiness and security. but i feel ill never accomplish these goals and iam stuck here. im in a one bedroom apartment on welfare benifits, i have bpd, im trying to get some therapy, i reside in britain, but was born in france, iam from se france, i came here at 7. ive never been employed due to my problems, i have alot to get through, and i feel to overwhelmed by it. im worried ill be stuck here in britain, in these circumstances forever and i wont no how to get out, or ill be stopped from leaving. i'll be shackled here. iam stuck here forever until i die. ill never get away, never discover the world, ill never meet new people..never have happiness, never find a partner....ill never emigrate like i so dearly want to...it'll never happen...none of it. the walls of this apartment are closing in,like a b horror movie. please can anyone help? iam 30 now, dealing with bpd, isolated and living alone...having survived a traumatic life. i feel people have alienated me, and my life will never work out, things are working against me and ill never leave here

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1. *hugs* i think getting some therapy will be a good idea. it sounds like you are depressed and seeing a therapist/psychiatrist and being put on medication will help you clear your mind, because you sound like you feel really helpless but really your not and things can change, just keep your head up and get some help :]
2. Where do you want to emigrate? Do you have family in France that you can contact to send you money to move? You don't say how old you are now, but is there a possibility you could apply to be a foreign exchange student? Why not look for some kind of support group where as a way to meet other people and not be so alone in your apartment. The welfare office will probably have some addresses to give you for support groups. Why not consider volunteering if you can't work. Living on welfare, you are not going to get rich. Why not see if they have programs to re integrate you into the workforce. Start looking for some support resources in the telephone directory and through your welfare office. Get out and make connections, you never know what the connection may lead to. Edited: Well, imagine the worst and you have to stay where you are, you have to try to find happiness where you are - get into therapy if you can and think about joining some kind of support group or volunteering since you are not working, you have time to do those things. It will get you out and seeing new people. A friendship and possibly even more could develop. You got to want to do better for yourself. I hope you will think about some of the suggestions. Good luck.
3. I read something similar not too long ago. Just make a commitment to change and have a better life. you are in control of your destiny .
4. Hello again, Sand-Doom! By now all of the regulars here know about your current difficulties. Don't wear out your friends when you need them. Start doing some of the many things that have been suggested, EVERY DAY, in the SAME PLACE, at the SAME TIME. Human beings can pull themselves up by the boot-straps. We invent a little external structure for ourselves to give the structures inside a chance to heal. I'm in a situation very similar to yours, and every day (especially every morning, starting around six...) is pure agony. All of those things you long for and more, much more, I had them, and sure enough, I am in a basement room now, I'm broke and broken, the phone never rings, and I want to emigrate, fast, anywhere. Now, I won't do anything of the sort just yet. Everything I suggested last time, I'm struggling to implement myself. I'm starting with those little make-shift scraps of external structure. You know, put things on your agenda, preferably new sorts of experiences which involve helping someone else, contexts in which there is no scope whatsoever for discussion of your own situation (and ideally, in which you can't even think about it). Then add new items to your agenda, one at a time, after each one has become a habit. This week I looked up some of the local do-gooders who want to bring up the literacy rate. What a job. There must be about fifty-thousand people here who can't read or write, I mean at all. (Evidently you and I haven't yet cornered all of the problems in the world.) Volunteers for work of this sort should be in even higher demand in Britain, with the families and children of all of the immigrants. Do what you can to smuggle a couple of people out of Hell -you'll leave with them. Enough already, go! Please, just do this! Do it! Do it now!
5. Its not what your born into but what you have it in yourself to be! You have it in your power to make a better life for yourself-its starts with making the first move. You have to make the first move. Oportunities are all around just open your eyes. Its your choice-theres always a way. :)
6. Hey, You really need to move soon, I'm watching your questions and its almost as if your getting worse especially the last week or so. You got my email, use it. You know I understand to some degree but you really need to start taking action...Good Luck, I hope to hear from you soon..