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has anyone got psychological problems and are jealous and angry at people who have lives and who get their?

needs met? i have psychological problems, live alone, await therapy and i get really enraged lookin at other people who appear to have a life, relashionships, friends, a job. when i have none of those, live alone in an apartment and have to endure loneliness and isolation everyday...and other people dont have to go through that, and happiness comes easy to them.....im so angry!! (clenched teeth) seeing them huge grins on myspace when i browse through the girls profiles....its not fare that i should be denied that ! im 29, i wait for therapy, have no social connections, and my life is empty and boorin and lonely, and no one gives a damn! can anyone offer a view on this? and to those who suffer mentally, does it make you angry watchin those havin a happy life?

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1. Why do you keep saying that you wait for therapy? Are you in therapy now? Are you waiting for it to work? I wear my metal anguish as a badge of courage. I suffered through a lot in my short life and I am ok with it, because in the end I have learned a lot from teh pain I have endured. Though recently I find myself looking at my half sisters who have everything I should have had, but was denied. They have both parents happy and together, supporting them, they do things as a family, my family always outcast me, my mother beat the crap out of me, and all she does is love them. They both have their college educations paid for, I work nights while raising my family to try and pay for college, they all have all these rich happy connected friends, I live in isolation because all I do is work, school and care for kids. I started to get really really upset, angry, spiteful. WHy do they have all these opportunities and I am left struggling. Then I remember, that we each have a place in this world, and in the end I have actually lived more than they have. They live in a shallow existence that involves who has the nicest friggin shoes. I have pain that allows me to reach out to others, lets me write beautiful poetry, lets me feel true joy when it actually comes around. A lot of people are miserable in their existence and just play happy on TV, don't be angry at them, they are probably just as empty on the inside as you are on the outside. WHen you make it through your arduous journey of therapy and come out the other side, you will have so much more than any of them. Good luck to you, and I give a damn.
2. We choose our own drama genre. Consider changing yours and maybe you will be happier. The shark avatar is an example. We present our drama vision to the world and the world responds accordingly so. Just be the person you want to be. Other people are happy and have friends because they make the effort in that direction. Don't spend so much energy and effort in creating the wrong genre. Life is too short. Make it whatever you want it to be. If you think it's easy, you're wrong. Mental illness is a choice. Do not choose to be so miserable. Do not wallow in emotional ruin. It isn't a good path. Walk another. Build a better vision. It's completely up to you. Your teeth are clenched at yourself and you know it. Buck up. It's YOUR choice. How do you choose to be?
3. It is totally disgusting to watch those "so called" happy lives. I know how you feel. My life has been stolen from me twice. I do not believe any friendship nor love. That people, who seem very happy, are only narrow minded crowds actually deserve nothing at all. But because they are too narrow minded that they can get happy with any silly thing. So the life that you watch from your window is the stupidest film of all. Have you watched the "phantom of the opera"? If you don't, please do so. We are the phantoms of real life. And even when we love someone truly from our heart, they turn out to be coquette. And prefer us over other narrow minded sillies. Life is not fair pal.
4. All is not as it seems, we all have problems,It is how we deal with them that sets us apart. This involves leaving the bad behind ,accepting only uplifting thoughts to dwell in our minds ,thus putting us onto that road and place with that big smile.