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does anyone think iam getting the fair, right therapy or treatment?

ill really try to keep this short. im 31, had a alot of struggles in life and adversity , psychological difficulties , and bullying and victimisation in earlier life. i have also squandered away years, made wrong decision through anger and wrath , been in prison for violence and assaults , carrying knives, been in a mental hospital 11 years back - as a result , i have missed out in life on all the normal things like : - building relationships, being employed , getting qualifications , most things etc. i have made plenty progress for years, without the correct treatment program , just through my own internal will and strength , i live in a one bedroom apartment on sickness disability owning few material possessions. my days are empty lonely, i read creative things, and read about human behavioural psychology which iam very interested it. i do not have the luxury of a social support network because i have never had the opportunity to build one up. my main symptoms i have had for many years are : aggressive outbursts , struggling to control them, racing '' obsessive '' thoughts and worries everyday - severe anxiety and panicky feelings , agoraphobia , afraid to go out, and be around people, flash back to traumatic memories - startled by loud noises , get panic attacks, extreme wrathful feelings , severe anger - persecutory paranoia, people are against me , obsessive worries and thoughts , thoughts feel scattered and jumbled , mind going blank , being depressed because of mind going blank and forgetting what i was obsessively worried about. those are my main symptoms , my diagnosis so far has been through the years : paranoid personality disorder , antisocial personality disorder , bpd , psychopathic personality disorder . - various personality disorders. my psychiatrist is sticking by that opinion , but i feel i have '' co existing '' anxiety disorders and are pursuing another independent opinion to be tested for : ptsd , ocd and G.A.D - general anxiety disorder. i strongly feel i have co existing anxiety disorders , but i agree with my main diagnosis of personality disorders to. - but feel it is important to diagnose the anxiety disorders if i have them. the treatment they are offering me, for now is : graded exposure , to go out with a support worker lady into my local community , to get me integrated and to face my anxieties - they said they do agree i need psychotherapy, but first they want me to try the graded exposure, and also the resources are not around right now for psychotherapy. iam insistent that i need psychotherapy, my psychiatrist has given me an antidepressant which has helped a little , helped a bit slow down the obsessive thoughts and worries, but i still have them. so - after my story , does anyone think iam getting the fair or right therapy ? i also struggle with low self esteem, maintaing relationships , become clingy, act too eager, idolise people then devalue them if i feel let down by them etc. struggle with anger outbursts ,. relationship bounderies. i accept my personality disorder diagnosis but feel i have co existing anxiety disorders.

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1. Its a lot to read but I think they should also have you on somthing to relax you- ativan worked great with me- i am bipolar ( manic) once you're relaxed you will be more open to go and meet other people. You sound a lot like I did. If you need any advice feel free to hit me up. Good Luck
2. Wow, it's rare to have someone know so much about the issues they are dealing with and to have so many disorders in one's life. You seem to be very well read on all of the disorders and are facing them head on. I think that is going to do wonders for you in getting to the root of them and helping to alleviate them. There are many wonderful programs out there that help you deal with issues such as these naturally. I'm not saying they will cure you but they could help minimize the effects of your conditions. And I would imagine any help would be appreciated. Centerpointe Research Institute does wonderful things with NLP type methods for relieving anxiety and stress, http://www.centerpointe.com. Here are a couple more links to visit that could provide additional knowledge and help, http://zikkir.com/health/1386 http://www.stoppanicattacksnow.info Let me know if any of these help. Look forward to hearing good things about your progress. Take care of yourself. We'll pray for you!
3. psychotherapy if done right can be very effective. in the therapy they need to break you down to the emotional child that you were and go very deep with difficult feelings and emotions. Expect to cry alot which is healthy. Eeventually you come to a good resolve and realisation .but you have to do it right its very hard work. Id give all the disorders and labels a miss yes they might fit but having a disorderlabel helps no one only induce anxiety. its the resons why and understanding the emotional reasons (deeper than you might ever imagine) that are important. if you have a good psychotherapist they'll not focus on labels or disorders but the raw emotions and feelings the basis of everything in who we are. good luck
4. Why do you want to be labelled with more diagnoses?? i read a long time ago that you had been offered the help of a support worker? so have you not taken it up yet? you have to be ready for psychotheraphy its no walk in the park ,it can be really hard work ,where your emotions will be exposed,you may feel exposed,vulnerable,unsafe,scared,sadness, im not saying its a bad thing as you will also feel relief,empowered, hopefull,learn so much about you ,but also you will have to realise it takes time to get to this stage and it could be painful. listen to your docs be patient, were lucky in the uk to even get free healthcare