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how do i deal with all my obsessive worries until i can get proper therapy?

im 31 and are struggling to get the right treatment, care , meds or further assesments i need right now , so im having to go down other avenues to get the right treatment , im entitled to from the mental health services. i have bpd , which i accept but want to be tested further for PTSD and OCD of which ive had the symptoms for many years now. one of my biggest symptoms is agoraphobia , severe anxiety, panic attacks , having flashbacks , nightmares and obsessive racing thoughts and worries. my thoughts race everyday to where i struggle to focus, forget what i was thinking minutes before - mind blanks out , then i forget everything. its like i have to remember all the racing thoughts and be in control of all the obsessive worries or have '' clarity '' with most of them , or else , my mood plummets into the depths of despair. my thoughts race everyday rapidly, my mind all jumbled with thoughts scattered everywhere........obssesive worries. i live in a 1 bedroom apartment living on disability as i have done 5 years trying to hold my rage feeling together , anxiety and seek the '' right therapy ''. my obssessive racing thoughts which i realise are petty , really worry me and depress me every day......and i keep trying to find ways not to manically worry, but i keep '' failing '' with it. my obssesive racing thoughts are like this : what if the government stops my disability money or reduces it? panic worry. what if the government brings in steps to police and control the internet, banning limewire or banning the downloading of videos and music ? - monitering the internet watching everybodies actions ? panic worry. what if i buy material items from ebay, and their not perfect ? - like a bit of stitching loose or a slight flaw - or a slight discolouration on a garment or imperfection ? would the seller have done it purposefully to personally get at me ? panic worry. note : i have this obsessive problem ive had for years that material items have to be perfect and if their not , it means theyve been damaged on purpose by somebody to ruin my happiness. what if i lose what few material possessions ive got , like my old computer ? or few valuable books and dvds ? what if my apartment is burgled and i lose what few possesions i have , mainly my computer with a lot of things valuable, stored on it ? panic , worry. what if the government shuts down my internet because of the '' big brother '' type way the world is going ? worry worry. until i get the right treatment which ive struggled to get half my life because of the failures of the system............how do i cope with the obsessive worries ? the ones ive written here ?

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1. first, take a deep breath. ask God to give you the peace that only He can provide. second, start exercising. get on a regular exercise program, and stick with it. it will boost your "feel good" hormones, and reduce stress. also, it will help you sleep better at night. third, avoid alcohol. it adds to your mind's unrest and instability. fourth, keep yourself busy. you sound like you have too much time to worry about unnecessary things. fifth, try to become a more positive person. remember, "life is good!"
2. First, you are not going to get "proper therapy", because you want to control the therapists by diagnosing yourself and telling them what you demand for treatment. The only "proper therapy" for you seems to be you telling others how to take care of you or cure you of whatever you claim you have regardless of anything they have to say. As for the obsessive thoughts, you ALLOW yourself to have them. You KNOW that nobody is messing with clothes that your order JUST to ensure your unhappiness but you allow yourself to dwell on that thought anyways because there has to be someone to blame. As for the internet, it is not going to be shut down because, and you may not actually realize this, but the internet was not built just for you and global economy thrives on it. You may want to come to terms with the fact that you are not the center of the universe. Selfish people have obsessive, self absorbed thoughts. If you took the time to EVER consider any other human being than yourself you probably would not have so much time on your hands to dwell on nonsense.
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5. I will mention what I have mentioned before: just observe how much of your personal energy you have invested in worrying about things. What would happen if you took maybe 2% of that energy and invested it in a nice warm shower, a decent sandwich and some iced tea, a walk to the park, sitting quietly with a hat to shield your eyes, perhaps some dark glasses, just sitting quietly in the park for a little while, then coming back to the house and having a peaceful nap and then planning something really nice for supper? It would only take about 2% of all that energy you have invested in worrying to do all I mentioned.