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OMG SO CONFUSED!! PLEASE HELP!!?

OK so I've been dating my boyfriend for almost six months now my first real relationship. I love him but it sometimes feels like something is missing. I've heard that when you hold someones hand... you can just tell. And sometimes I feel it but others I don't. He has this friend, Michael, he's 19 and in the Army. he was on leave for christmas and my bf and I wanted to have a 3some and Michael agreed to it. Before Michael went to pick my bf up he stopped by my house cause I wanted to see him. I hadn't seen him since the first time he brought my bf to my house. we weren't going out then. so naturally i wanted to see him again. Well we sat there in his car and just talked. he's a hand holder so he took my hand. my heart sped up and i felt what was supposed to be there.he is very charming.and knows exactly what to say. and i could tell that he meant every single word. after we had gone to the hotel room and...yeah. we took my bf home first cause i wanted to see our friends he was staying with. after michael and i left i didnt want to go home so we just drove around and i cuddled up to him.I felt safe with him holding me. of course him being in the army he works out and has some nice muscles and the guys ive dated never really had muscle. so it felt good to feel his strong arm around me. i never let myself be that vulnerable. but there was something about him.we finally got to my apartment and sat in the parking lot. he pulled me to him and kissed me.and it just felt right. where as with my bf i have to kiss him deeply to feel it. but not with Michael the gentlest touch to my lips sent a surge through my body.we ended up having s e x. but it felt so much more than that.the next day around 10 am he came to see me. he waited patiently while i took a shower, i take long showers.and here's the most crazy part. He got along with my twin brother. which people find hard to do especially my bf. so i was scared he wouldnt get along with my little brother.but...he did.and i felt so happy being around him. i felt more like myself. he even bought all of us mcdonalds! and my brothers like him better than my bf. but like i said hes in the army and he left back to virginia and he going to be over seas soon. i dont wanna leave my bf. mainly cause i dont wanna hurt him. but theres just something between us that keeps me there. I'm so confused/please help me. i know its long and im sorry for that. also my bf knows what Michael and I did. but we already worked that out. hes fine since im still with him and Michael's gone. oh and they've been friends since well for a long time.also im 17 years and my bf is 20. i wasnt a one night stand i know for sure. we still talk and my bf and i had an open relationship. so it was more experimenting than cheating.

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Yeah right, if I wanted to read an entire manifesto it would be from someone who is interesting.
he loves you!?
assuming this is the honest truth, it's okay to not have romantic feelings for your bf. you haven't been with him all that long and you're still young, so if you don't feel "that way" just give it a little more time and if your feelings don't change, break up with him. you can't help how you feel!
what a girl are you you do not know what love is, tomorrow you will be in love and having sex with Michael's friend.
First of all you shouldn't of cheated on your boyfriend. Second of all its not experimenting Third of all hes too old for you. If you need some help on this subject contact me @ ballerina_kiera@yahoo.com
Sounds to me like your heart belongs more to Michael than to your boyfriend. I understand that him being in the Army makes any relationship with him right now difficult. However, he won't be in the Army forever. I would continue to stay in contact with him and when he comes back see if you still feel the same about him. It could be that the two of you were meant to be together. But be honest with your boyfriend. I know you don't want to hurt him but if your heart is with someone else then you're going to hurt him anyway. It's better to be straight forward and honest with him from the beginning. Good luck.
there is no open relationship you need to stay single
lmfao this took me like 10 minutes to read. awwwwww thats so cute. But at the same time that sounds like a verrrrry hard decision. Do what your heart tells you to do. thats the best solution. Whens the guy coming back? And if you feel like you and your boyfriend aren't going anywhere, go with the other guy, but you can always wait til the guy comes back and take it from there best of luck xox
Right now I would say the best and safest thing to do would be to stay with your boyfriend. If you love him you would. It sounds like you think love is like in the movies where everything is perfect. Love isn't. Love is something that is developed between two people not something that is felt through a kiss or holding hands. (Sometimes, but rarely) I'm not sure if you should be thinking about the army guy because of course he is in the army and that means that you are hardly going to see him. Ultimately the choice is up to you but this is my opinion.
Courage
ya, it IS long but i read it lol its ok i dont know but it seems ur bfs not really your type and michaels more your type but 3 of u are friends...and he kissed you KNOWING U HAD A BF, i dont know about that...think of it as you kissing your friends bf, its a bit wrong right? but if he really did like you it would be sweet, but if i really liked someone i wouldnt want to have a 3some with another guy (im talking about michael) coz knowing someone else is touching the person i love or doing things to them is just unbareable. sometimes guys are really goood liars, but it depends on if the girl is worth lying to. im not so sure about michael...but maybe unconsciously you dont really want to be with ur bf anyway. another thing may be that you just want some new spark in your relationship and only found that possibility in michael BUT TO BE SAFE, i think you should stay with your boyfriend and just see.. GOOD LUCK (yes, very confusing lol)
Wow this one was kind of a challenge, but I think I got something. First off its good you told your bf about everything, and if you guys all agreed on the 3some thing then hey its more power to ya. The thing is though with 3some its very hard because most of the time someone finds the other person in the same bed a lil more attractive which clearly you find in Michael. You would rather be with Michael but since he is always gone you know that it won't be a secure relationship, so instead your just settling with just this bf. The best thing to do in my option is you should be single and see what you really want. I know you don't want to hurt your bf feelings, but what about how you feel? If your not feeling it then your just not feeling it. You're still young so enjoy it now. Also, if you do decide to break it off don't go straight to Michael this is you're time so enjoy it by doing other things and not worry to much on what your bf or Michael are doing or thinking about.
You don't sound confused. Why don't you just keep doing what you're doing? Your boyfriend doesn't seem to mind. Hey!! GO for it!
If you are in an open relationship, why all the confusion? I tend to think people who share their partner with someone else , & it doesn't bother them, Do not have real love for each other, It is a bond & caring & Love , but in love in the relationship since. So just continue with your boyfriend, & do Micheal when he is in town, Since you did him & your boyfriend at the same time Why make a big deal about it Now*
there is a difference between caring for someone and then loving them (just like there is a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone). just based on what you said - you care a great deal for your bf, but you are falling in love with Michael. for starters - there is NO SUCH THING AS AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP (get that fact straight); it is you and your "bf" agreeing to "see" each other while "seeing" other people (which boils down to friends with benefits). also, the fact that you're bringing both your bf & Michael into the bedroom at the same time ... well, truthfully, that just seems a little like you having your cake and eating it too ("get it how ya live" ... i guess :| ). And the fact that you're asking this question lets all of us know that your bf really doesn't know the whole story about Michael. here's my advice to you: don't label yourself in a relationship when you're sleeping with multiple partners. stay single and "experiment" (that way you're at least be doing it right). secondly, you need to end the "relationship" with the bf (as in stop calling him your bf) & talk to Michael - regardless of his status as a US Army soldier (an experience i've been living for the past 12 years), if he truly cares for you he will do right by you. and honestly, make sure you stay up on your doctor visits and get checked regularly. it is obvious you need to at least set your bf free, and even more obvious that you need to tell Michael how you really feel. tread lightly, however, because no matter your intentions (or how you go about doing the right thing) someone's feelings will get hurt. and as for your own feelings ... don't let them cloud your better judgement so much that you end up doing something you will regret. best of luck to you.