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I cant stop thinking about my ex.?

okay to start out here my history with my ex: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=Atf6gIs0W5RgSeMQYeNoVFbty6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20090829094422AAboj65 on tuesday we met up for the first time in about a year. I sent her a letter about 2 months ago and we've been sending each other letters back and forth and we decided to met on tuesday. it great I bought my dog and we walked around the woods and river just talking catching up with other. we held each others hands towards the ends. when we got back to parking lot. she said good bye and were gonna have lunch on thursday we hugged each other and went our separate ways. this is where it gets weird last night [wednesday] I had a dream I was driving down the street and I saw her and this guy on a corner and he was yelling at her then hit her. then I stopped the car got out confronted him and he said he would get twenty guys to run in my house and beat me up then I said I have enough bullets and to come any time then he pulled out a knife and I pulled out mine and I disarmed him knocked him down on his knees went behind him and put my knife to his neck. then my ex starts yelling at me to stop and then I woke up from my dream. now earlier to night my friend and uncle were talking about fixing up the camaro in his back yard because the county sent him a letter about it. that got me thinking about last summer then I started thinking about how if I got back with my ex would my heart be able to handle it when I got home I just sat in my garage listing to the local country station then I felt the compelling urge to smoke [I quit a week ago] then this song about a girl whose husband died and how she misses him and then I thought if I join the Army will she still stay with me. I didn't sign up yet I just ook my MOS test but I defiantly want to sign my loyalty papers before I turn 19 in november. the next thing I know I smoked about 5 cigarettes and writing my ex's name all over a piece of paper. what do you think? I'm I heart broken or what. I just know know I never felt the way I do with this girl with any one else I dated. we dated for 15 months and were going to get married after we graduated. no it looks like we might get back together after a year apart. she didn't date any body for the year and I dated a girl as soon as she dumped me which was a big mistake [see link above] and was seeing an older lady about a moth ago. so Do you think I'm heart broken, do you think I could handle another break up with her?

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1. Move on Pal.* When its over its over.* Live in the present, don't try to resurrect and live in the past.* Move on asap.* Get over it.* Been there, Done that.*