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how should you react if you knew there were people ostracizing you, telling others to stay away or not?

associate with you? i have BPD that ive had long term, im 30 years old, ive endured alot of trauma and abuse in my life.....ive never been employed in my life....never made any friends....never had a significant other. i live alone in my one bedroom apartment, waiting for an assesment for therapy. my ultimate goal is to emigrate from britain, im not happy here, i wasn't born here......i would like to go back to france or over to the u.s. but im so depressed at the moment because i cant see how ill fullfill this dream with the immensley difficult circumstances i feel stuck in. i do NOT want to stay in britain. DO NOT. iam concerned as recentley ive lost a couple of online friends, which are important to me as i have no one else....ive only made a hanful of friends online...2 very close ones...ive not heard from them in a while...and the other two just stopped getting in contact..stopped iming me on yahho messenger..when they told me theyd be there for me and be a friend to me there all from the states...being rejected by these 2 friends has really hurt and confused me...why they have just stopped talking to me and being there. its got me thinking that its some sort of a conspiracy, that they were told not to talk or associate with me anymore....and im feeling really depressed about it. has anyone got any ideas why this has happened to me, and what the way forward is in general with my question? i hope someone can answer this. thanks

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1. I've found you can do anything you set your mind to. If you really want to get out of Britain you will. Do not doubt yourself. These two friends of yours that are online may not be able to get on the internet for awhile. They may be busy with a family emergency or maybe they're busy with work or something like that. Be patient, trust that they are not ignoring you and are merely busy. If they really "ditched" you as a friend they aren't worth your concern. You are a great person and if they can't see it they are blind. Know that you need to just take a deep breath, sit back and relax. You are unique and have a lot of good quality's about you I'm sure of it. I know you can do it. Good luck.